Gopesh
Been serving for so long but still… not even the aroma of Krishna?
BB Govinda Swami: Sometimes devotees say: “Oh, He has forgotten us. Oh, I’ve been chanting Hare Krishna for five years, so much sincere service I’m doing, but still…. not even the aroma of Krishna. What to speak of seeing Krishna! Has He forgotten us? Is He hard-hearted? Is He indifferent? Why doesn’t he respond? Why doesn’t He reciprocate with us?
«Even when it’s cold in Almaty we get up and we go to Mangala Arati!… when Maharaja is there…. [audience laughs] … the rest of the time we just sleep till seven and think ‘Oooh, no one will ever find out….’ [audience laughs]
«We’re making so much tapasya! Virabhadra, he is going out on the street and he is saying ‘Pojaluysta [eng. please], take this book!’ And they are saying, ‘Aaaah! Useless person! Oh, parasite! Ohhhh, donkey! Oh get a job! Aaaaghgh! [audience laughs] I’m gonna give you something!’ [sound of punching]
«So much tapasya! So much austerity! And Krishna is not hearing. Krishna is not reciprocating.» And maybe it’s not even you that feel that way.
One time when Srimati Radhika was feeling separation from Krishna her heart was burning in separation and then bzzzzz…. Bumblebee came, she looked at the bumblebee and said: “I know who you are! I know who you are… You are an unreliable servant of an unreliable master. I know, I know about your master! We have heard from Purnamasi about your master, in the previous life we know that he cut the nose of a woman, had her ears cut off, we know that he mercilessly killed monkeys. Cruel person. So cruel and heartless! We know who your master is!”
It’s not even us. Sometimes the great devotees they speak in that way also. They do it in the madness of love. We do it just because we’re mad.
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